bored now

kinda weird using my journal again.....
but i don't know...I'm lying here on my couch, depressed as usual, thinking about some shit....life, ....my trust issues with my bf, other issues with him...with myself and the world....with myself and me......and as usual the need for self-destructive actions creeps up.... -.-
maybe I just need a drink.....or a friend to talk to....but hey, as usual hard to find - what a surprise!...

wtf, who cares...everybody is too busy with their own petty life and problems....understandable. i don't blame them.

ok, so I finally just fucking took the time (which I don't actually have cos I have to learn, for fuck's sake) to create a new LJ to post my poems, but every stoopid name I pick is already taken. dammit! and those were so cool names! :-(
nevermind, I just decided to write this while I wait for another note that the name I wnated is already taken.....

wrote a test today. was alright, I guess....2 down 3 to go. one test on thursday, the last two next week. yuk! and well, afterwards I MIGHT have time to finally enjoy christmas time. urgh, I'm so bitchy. nevermind.

oooh, they finally took a name. YAY! so I gotta finish that new LJ.

love, A.

HEY!!
I had a really nice weekend. I met a friend (moe747) on friday (and also met some old fellas from my fromer school, which was unexpected but really cool). on saturday I was "shopping" (but no "fun shopping") with me mum and then later talked with my best friend Doris (MissEgypt86) on the phone, which was also really nice. and today, my mum and myself went to Ochsenberg to eat Schnitzel at the "Sandgrube" :-) mmmh, delicious! ;-P
So, everything was fine....well, except....I didn't do anything for school...again.....I'm so fucked.......dammit!

Well, I hope I satisfied my friends who urged me to write something here :-)

love, A.

hey there
just wanted to say that I'm at kwick.de now - I'm CorpseBride1987
also I'm "CorpseBride" at icq --> 449-484-624

ok, thats it. I had a very emotionally chaotic weekend, so I don't wanna write any more

love, A.

my new life is totally hindering my livejournal activities. and that really sucks! I don't even get to read all the lovely Rayne-fics! :-(
I'm so beaten when I get home everyday and also I'm busy with reorganizing my life. totally exhausting!
but what sucks most of all is that I miss my friends so much. it's horrible and I hate it! *cries*

moreover I feel even more crazy than I actually am among those new people in my life. I mean I like them and all ....but they're all so normal and I'm constantly saying something stupid or weird......

anyway....I'm gonna be gone (again) for 1 week, because I'm gonna be in a seminar in Hohenheim.

so, bye again!

love ya, A.

It's so good to be back! ^^
was almost an orgasmatic experience to be back @ my LJ and moreover @rayne_shippers. gotta read A LOT now.....yay!! ^^

am kinda sad though that only one lovely person wrote a fictional memory for me. thought I had some nice things to read when I'm back......*pouts* never mind

though my laptop is repaired it's still enervin the hell outta me! but thats alright....I ordered a new/second one last thursday. *pleased grin*

Doris, when you read this: Sorry, dass ich vorhin nicht ans Telefon bin- war seeehr gestresst mit dem blöden PC. Wir telefoniern dann morgen wg. der MP, okay? Und falls ich's vergess: ich brauch unbedingt noch des Übersetzungsprogramm von dir. DANKE! hdl ^^

anyway, hope you missed me a little ;)
but I gotta take a shower now.

love ya, Ariane

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, (even if we don't speak often) please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL memory of you and me. It can be anything you want - good or bad - BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE.

When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your journal and be surprised (or mortified) about what people DON'T ACTUALLY remember about you!

(adopted from http://kayte.livejournal.com/521157.html)<-if you need some examples look through the comments to her entry- but make something up on your own.

THANKS!! ^^

I have no choice. despite my breaking heart I have to give my pc away to get it repaired. *sigh* no pc, no internet and the most fatal one: NO RAYNE for 2 WEEKS! I don't know how I'll manage that.....:( that's so goddamn awful.
especially since real life starts again on friday and everything will be shitty and stressful again and I won't have Rayne-y goodness to comfort me...:(

guess I'll be watching a lotta FIREFLY 'n' BUFFY, huh? ;)




gonna miss my Rayne_shippers!!!!! :(

stoopid thing! *sigh*
today, I'm gonna use those recovery-cds and delete everything on my laptop. puh! and if it still won't work after that I have to give it to the store and they'll send it in...which means TWO WEEKS without my beloved computer and NO INTERNET!! dammit! hope it won't come that far....
wish me luck!
just gonna post this lil thing....is it a banner? I don't know what it's called...^^
I just put some o' my icons together. If'n you want them separately, you have to look through my recent entries.




nothin special;) hope you'll like anyway.
use if you want to.
bye y'all

despite "wasting" my time on making and posting icons, I finally found some time to write my bio. wow! *lol*




ALSO: yesterday arrived my "Firefly Companion Vol.1"!!!!!! YAY! *does her happy dance* ^^
sucks that Vol.2 will be released only in spring 2007. :( *pouts*
anyway, I'm glad I got the first one. of course I already finished reading it ;)

although I really love my computer, I have to say she's being a total bitch today (yes, my laptop is female;)! I needed almost TWO hours to finally start Windows!! And after everything seemed to work normal again, I was so happy that I made some more icons.......*shakes her head* icons, again,....tssss. *lol* ^^





~LE FIN~

take 'n' use- y'don't have ta credit ^^

well, guess what - icons.......


Tim Burton's Corpse Bride:





SERENITY/FIREFLY




so, that's it....for now ;)

take, use, abuse as you please ^^

ok, ok, I'm just gonna post these few icons, so I can put them from my "new icons"-folder on my laptop to my "my own icons"-folder.
...I think I'm obsessed with icons.....I just wish I could make those moving ones (.gif)...dammit!

anyway, here are my newest icons. *sigh*

first of all, the Buffy ones:


'k, now FIREFLY/SERENITY:




ya see, not that many this time, huh? ^^
take and use as you like!

night, A.

I got a lota free time lately:





use as you please ;)

gee, today was amazingly boring....

as I mentioned before, I slept at my friend's yesterday, which was really nice, coz we haven't done that in quite a while. so when I came home yesterday I went straight for the computer (what else!) and stayed there till nearly 6 a.m. - hence the sleeping till noon today. later me and my mum went to town (like we do almost everyday), but not for long. afterwards, we went to the graveyard and watered the plants. when we were home, I played "Final Fantasy X" (PS2), ate and watched "Malcom in the middle" and "the OC". and now I'm here.........as I said: I've had a veeeeeeery boring day....- but I don't complain, because I know in about 2 weeks I wish myself back to those boring times, coz in 2 weeks "real life" starts and annoys me again - so: NO COMPLAININ! ^^

so, I'm at my best friend's (it's her 20th birthday) and she allowed me to use her internet to finally post my wallpapers and some pics.
--> thanks Doris!!:)

but I have to say- these wallpapers are not thaaat good, cuz for one thing I'm no pro and I also don't have photoshop (dammit!). so please consider that when you comment. thanks!

click on the pic to see a larger image.





































the text from the last wallpaper is from the song "I love you" by Sarah McLachlan. You can download it here: http://www.megaupload.com/de/?d=28Y3OZQR


here's another song I promised to UL a long while ago: http://www.megaupload.com/de/?d=3H4A10XO
it's "sister psychic" by Smash Mouth (cuz it made me think of River)


and another song: http://www.megaupload.com/de/?d=3QJU06RV
that's "blue sun" by Darling Violetta. I only posted it because of the title ;)


so, hope you were pleased^^ and as always: take + use whatever you want and commments appreciated.


kisses, A.

Hi
today was a stoopid day! - so I decided to cheer myself up with some iconmaking!

I really like the Jewel/Nathan one.






take what you want! ^^


Greets, A.

since I got so nice comments I made some more icons.






and some pics:



















ok, that's it! I tried to UL my wallpapers, but it takes like....forever- so I won't do it now.


as always: comments appreciated + take & use what you want!


kisses, A.

Hi
made some new icons. I also made some wallpapers but I won't UL them now. might take a while. don't worry they're not that good anyway;)







some feedback would be nice :)

please feel free to use anything you want!

kisses, A.

Hey!
I made some new icons. Hah! *lol*

‘k, let’s start with B.....like BUFFY


















BIF NAKED






QUEER AS FOLK


XENA










JOSSI & JAGGER (that’s a saaaad movie....but I love it;)

JASON STATHAM (grrr.....)


EWAN MCGREGOR (one from “Velvet Goldmine”- one of my favorite movies ever!)



HIM







THE 10th KINGDOM







X-FILES



PETA WILSON (I simply adore her...)



MILLA JOVOVICH (don’t you just wanna worship her, too? *sigh*)

VELVET CHAIN

ALYSSA MILANO
So dirrtey:

RANDOM ASS ICONS ;)




Hope, you’ll like ‘em.

Use what you want and credit if you like.

Kisses, A.

...I made my FIRST icons!
haha.... hope, you'll like'em. nothin special though.

Firefly:





one Sarah Michelle Gellar:



not that it's really interesting: 2 private ones:

that one was made in France a year ago. the black haired is me:


that one was made at my garduation ball 3 weeks ago- the right one is my best friend and the left one is me:

test test test

mhpf! I got a lil lazy from being on trips the whole last week ("thx, mum!"). was nice though, especially cos of the weather.
but this week I'm gonna bathe in my lazyness.....well, at least a little. today, I have to pick up my glasses from repairing (hope they're okay now) and then I'm gonna rent a movie which I haven't done in quite a while.......maybe I get some pOrn ;)

...I received my monthly money and FINALLY I was able to buy the new BILLY TALENT - album!!Hah!

and FINALLY all my stressful times are over - well, for now (which means exactly 2 months)! I survived the graduation ball and can enjoy the beautiful warm weather! yey!



"The kids of tomorrow don't need today,
when they live in the sins of yesterday" - BILLY TALENT "red flag"

*hugs her new CD* ^o^

only 3 days left to my graduation ball.....and I still have NOTHING TO WEAR and also the hairdresser who is our "friendly neighbor" (*cough*) told me that she couldn't do my hair for the ball as promised! I'm so frustrated! It's probably the last time that I see most of these people on the ball, and for ONE TIME I just wanted to look really beautiful on that evening! can forget that now......total bummer.

quite in opposition to this ;)
-->

Drabble #5 – arms

“These arms....so strong and masculine

Never seen anything sexier

Big, hard muscles from liftin weights nearly every gorram day

That time is definitly not wasted

These arms are a hell of’a useful, too

They’re one of his body parts which make folk ‘fraid of him

And women attracted to him

Yeah, those arms. A gift from Buddha.

Make him just so....HOT!


Oh yeah” Jayne thinks while flexin his muscles one more time. “I just love lookin in the mirror.”

And with a smirk on his face he turns away from the mirror and exits his bunk.


_end_ ^^

Drabble #4 - dancing

Jayne wanted to lift weights. That’s the only reason he went down to the cargo bay.

But now he could barely remember why he had come here.

He found himself staring at that feng le girl. What the gorram hell was she doin?

The way she moved her legs.....her long smooth legs.......and her hair .....her hair was just wavin ‘round ..and - was that supposed to be a dance?

Well, if’n that are them dances she’d learned on that damn core, he was sure they had to visit that gorram core more often. Maybe they had some fancy-ass stripbars where the girls danced like that.

That dance......NOW - wait a sec - was he thinkin on River goddamn Tam and her dancin like a stripper???

His eyes grew wide in shock as he realized she really was doin a stripperish kinda dance. Yet, he couldn’t take his eyes off of her. Her movements were so ....HOT!

He was completely captured by the sight.

He was so captured that he didn’t even recognize when River stopped dancing and looked at him irritated.

“Jayne?”

no reaction

“Jayne!”

“....huh? What?!”

“There is saliva leaking off your mouth.”


-ENDE-

comments appreciated!

Drabble #3 – Genius

Zoe just came from the bridge as she was walking down the hallway towards the common room. But just shortly before the door she stopped and stood still in the hallway.

She was watching River who was sitting motionless on a chair staring into blank space. Her eyes were wide and looked as if they knew everything.

“Why’s she staring into space? Does she see something that isn’t there or is she just counting dust kernels?” Zoe thought. “Never know with her. Even after becoming more lucid after Miranda, River was quite odd sometimes and hard to understand. But then again, she was also a genius and people like that were often a lil bit off the hook.

Sometimes I just wanna know what she’s thinkin.” Zoe thought while watching River tilting her head to the side and pulling up her eyebrows.

“Is she hearing my thoughts or someone else’s that evoke that reaction? Or is she thinkin about the mysteries of the ‘verse trying to solve them?”

“Maybe I should ask her if she sees something that could be important to us.....there could be all kinds of threats.”

With a sigh and a shrug Zoe decided to finally go into the common room before being accused being a stalker.

But when she finally entered the room she came to a sudden halt again.

- River wasn’t staring into space or solving the mysteries of the universe.

- She was checking out Jayne’s ass while he was repairing the gorram couch!!

“Well, guess a genius is only human after all.” Zoe though while turning around to leave but not exiting the room without a hidden glance at Jayne’s backside.


-END-

Drabble #2

River was walking very slowly and carefully, because of the precious load she was carrying.
She had a hard time to balance the thing as Simon and Kaylee passed her by, or actually she had to pass them by because the pair was so shocked by the sight of the gigantic object in Rivers hands that they just stood there – right in River’s way. But she managed to get through.

The next obstacle were the stairs down to the cargo bay. It was hard for her to not fall down the stairs because that enormous thing in her tiny hands was so heavy. So she had to be extra careful.
It took quite some time but somehow she finally was in the cargo bay.......where she expected him to be, working out on his weight bench.........but it must have taken too much time to get there, because he must’ve left already.

River sighed, coz she knew she had to go back up those ruttin stairs again. And her armes already hurt from the weight on them.

Nevertheless she struggled herself up there again. But where was he? She thought, the best try would be the kitchen....since he had worked out, he must be hungry or just hungrier than he is anyway all the time.

So she went for the kitchen. Just getting there was getting a mite trickier than she hoped......with every step her feet became harder to lift and her arms felt like falling right off. She just wished she would reach him soon.

When she entered the hallway outside of the kitchen she already could be heard from inside, because she was breathing so loudly.

Finally reaching the kitchen she saw her aim, her Jayne. Finally she could give him his well earned present.

When Jayne saw her, his eyes went big in surprise and were full of expectation. She smiled at him and strained herself to get to him as fast as possible.

Jayne nearly drooled on his shoes as he saw her coming towards him with that delicious thing in her hands......

.........he got more aroused by the second.......


........not realizing what hard work it was for River .......

.............but realizing how sticky and mushy he suddenly felt after River stumbled and threw his present all over him.

“Gorramit River. That fine cake! Oughta be more c’reful, girl! Urgh! Now it’s wasted.”

River quickly stood up and looked at him intently for a moment before she stated:

“That’s an even better present!”

“Huh? How’s me gettin all cake-covered a better present?”

“Because I can lick it of off you” and she smiled at him seductively.

That’s just when the drooling started again.........



-END-

My first fanfic ever......comments appreciated.
Just a drabble

Drabble #1


„Jayne?“

„Huh?“

„Thank you for showing me your man parts!”

“What’cha goin on about, gorram moonbrain? Never happened!”

“sure it did.....”

“no”

“yes!”

“no!”

“of course!”

“hell NO!”

“Then why do I know exactly what they look like?”

“oh yeah??! Then what do they look like?”

“unimpressive”

“......WHAT?!!! my man parts ‘re gorram perfect”

“unimpressive, I’ve seen better.”

“Like hell ya did!”

Without hesitation, Jayne pulls down his pants.

To get a better look, River leans closer to his man parts with a solemn smile on her face.

“SOO?”


While turning to leave River contently throws over her shoulder: “perfect!”


-END-

Your Japanese Name Is...

Mayako Aburakoji


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Your Personality Profile

You are sexy, powerful, and bold.
You're full of passion and energy...
Sometimes this passion has a dark side.

You feel most alive when you're seducing someone.
You never fail to get someone's attention.
Quick minded, you're also quick to lose your temper!

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Your Theme Song is Back in Black by AC/DC

"Back in black, I hit the sack,
I've been too long, I'm glad to be back"

Things sometimes get really crazy for you, and sometimes you have to get away from all the chaos.
But each time you stage your comeback, it's even better than the last!

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After you die...
Reincarnated as Yourself

After death, you will be reborn again as yourself. You will live the same life, unbeknownst to you. However, you will have vivid moments of déjà vu, as you probably have now.

Your Birthdate: March 22

You tend to be understated and under appreciated.
You have a hidden force to do amazing things, doing them your own way.
People may see you as strange and shy, but they know little.
Your unconventional ways have more power than they (and even you) know.

Your strength: Standing up for what you know is true

Your weakness: You tend to be picky and rigid

Your power color: Silver

Your power symbol: Square

Your power month: April

oookay, my biology final wasn't that bad. I wrote 20 pages so something has to be right. so I wasn't in the mood to take the sedatives either, instead I went to see "Ice Age 2" with some of my friends. the movie was kind of a drag, but at least a little bit funny...
also, I went to a party on saturday. was alright. well more or less....
tomorrow I'm gonna buy a new stereo and I also need a new printer-color. I'm always spendin so much money. I'm such a consumer....no wonder I'm nearly broke most of the time;)
cya

jeez, the weather's gone crazy. one day it's almost hot and sunny, the next it rains - and today as I looked out of the window while writing my final exam in English, it is snowing!! totally feng le!
on friday I have to write my final exam in biology - it's gonna be awful.Go se (=shit), I should have learned when I had the time. but I'm a stupid, lazy bitch, so I didn't. Poor me!
but I already decided what I'm gonna do that day: I'm gonna take sedatives with a nice glas of whine and sleep all weekend. after that I have vacation, so I can socialize next week.